friendhip??

what is friend ship?? u do know?? than in a few words explain me.
it's a relationship bwtween 2 people that care of each other?? or is it a way to have advantage of another human beeing?? u say it is the first.. mmm well interesting i would like to believe in your words. yes i said i would like to because i don't, what i think?? o dear it is hard to explain but i will try.
i believe that friendship is a feeling that us(humans) live for, one of those things that we can live without, but o my if it is painfull. with no friends we are simple animals that eat sleep and fight. so we need friends? no they are not cecessary as water or air, they are tools that we use to carve our soul. we have friends to make memorable moments that make our travel to caronts' boat more enjoyable, and less painfull. you say i am too pessimistic?? maybe but haven't you had a friend that used your as a darthboard?? one of those friends you would've gave your life for, one of those you still think about at night before faling asleep, thinking "why did he/she do that?". see everyone of us has experiencedsomething like that, everyone of us has looked outside the window thinking is their anyone i can trust?? is there any soul in this world that will not turn his back on me?? the answer my dear is no, humans ar selfish animals that with the prospective of a personal gain will step on anything. u say your not this way? well i would like to believe that too. i am not accusing you, god no i barelly know u and i don't like to judge, but i can say we all try to help our self, and the ones that step on the people that step in their way are the people that live a succesfull life and that have plenty of friend to around them. i know i know, it make no sense, tell me about it. don't try to rationalize the human mind, understand just that u need to be you own bestfriend because that is the only homosapiens that will not turn ur back on you. trust your soul, trust your mind.
if it's hard to do?? yes extremly and some nights the room will feel more empty as usual, sometimes u will cry, but u will have the power to conqre the world after all those tears. am i strong now?? no hell no, i am the weakest person i know, but i am stronger than i was years ago. if i am in love?? no obviously, maybe i would not even said all this if i was. if i like someone? yes i do but our lifes will never cross, how do i know?? well i guess i don't but hoping to have her around me will just make me mad, as if would wait for a miracle to make my father come back from the dead. if i would fight for her? i would the day i will have the chance but for know, she will be the princess of my dreams.